Dear Universe,
You know that I am a semi-skeptic. I have seen a lot of things that make me believe that all that happens around us is not based solely upon the laws of math and science. There is reason to believe that something else is involved too.
But, I have never hung my hat on that because it makes me nervous. I get self conscious about some things and you know that I am very reluctant to hand out my trust. You know that I feel like when I have I have gotten my heart torn through my chest, my ass kicked and my soul devoured by demons.
Ok, maybe that is a slight exaggeration but it is close enough to the truth. I have the scars that bear witness to what I have seen, watched and endured. It could always be far worse but it could be far better.
It certainly is fair to say that I have learned many lessons and that I am far tougher, stronger and smarter because of them. Â And before you get all uppity and in my face let me add that I don’t think that I have stopped learning either.
But what I have done is made the decision to publicly declare that I am opening myself up to possibilities and opportunities. I have taken steps to make changes because changes have to be made. I can’t do what I have been doing any longer.
It is not working and I am done paying the price for trying not to change. There are lines on my face, less hair on my head and other physical signs that change is necessary. I have already proven to myself that I can take a serious beating and keep standing. I give back twice as good as I get but that isn’t helping here, so…
So here we are universe- just you and I standing out somewhere in space. My eyes and heart are open and I think that I see you pushing me in certain directions so I am going with my gut.
I feel a bit like Tevye singing If I Were A Rich Man but I am clearly not a milkman living in the shtetl. Of course if my kids were here I would remind them that my great-grandparents left the shtetl to come to America. I might talk to them about my zaide, the tailor who was not named Mottel Kamzoil but did marry the girl who stole his heart. Her name wasn’t Pesha Rachel but that is not important in this context.
So universe as I open myself up to possibilities and opportunities I am anxious in a good way to see what you send to me. But I want to make it clear that I am going to continue pushing hard to make other changes too because even though I have made this declaration I am still a “make your own luck” kind of guy.
Let’s shake on it universe and get things moving. BTW, if you want a faster response out of me it might help if you were more clear in your messaging- sometimes I am a little slow.
Regards,
Jack
Ohhhh! I like the new site. A LOT!
Thank you Gini. I really appreciate that. I put a lot of time into this place.
I genuinely appreciate a good god-talk without a single mention of “Jesus”.
-DorkDad
I am the Jewish kid on the block so you probably won’t hear/see his name coming from my mouth.
Hi Jack! I love your note to the Universe! Did you know the Universe writes back 😮 Mike Dooley does these wonderful M-F daily emails – from the Universe that I’ve been enjoying for years! Check them out – they just may make the messages come clearer, but at the very least, they’re FUN!
http://www.tut.com/theclub/
😉
Lori
Hi Lori,
I wasn’t familiar with Mike Dooley. I’ll have to check out his site- fun is always a good thing.
I’m a skeptical believer. Too much freaky shit in my life to not believe in God at all, but to much other freaky shit going down in this world to just hand myself over to dogmatic ideology anymore.
Skeptical believer is a good description- I fit into that category… sort of.
Jack, aloha. WOW! When I saw your update, I wish that I had realized this post was waiting to be read.
Jack, this is fantastic and I want to explore this topic with you because I am a passionate believer. As it happens, I am dashing out for the evening.
However, tomorrow “i’ll be back” here and perhaps in a private message on fb.
Jack, I’m excited for you. Until tomorrow, aloha. Janet
Hi Janet,’
I look forward to hearing what you have to say. I am quite curious.
Jack,
You can’t go wrong following your gut. That is your intuition. It does not lie.
Also, you always make your own luck. That is because YOU direct everything that happens – the good, the bad, and the seemingly (but not) incomprehensible. Fortunately if you forget what your order is, help is available. Asking for it is the first step after being open to it.
All of those @#%!! previous experiences are necessary to get you where you want to go. Now though you sound like you are done baking so let the fun begin.
BTW are you a fan of Larry McMurtry?
I sometimes wonder if my gut has led me astray- it is that whole heart versus head battle.
But as I said I am opening my eyes to the things around me and doing my best to look at it all differently.
Very curious to see what happens. Not familiar with Larry McMurtry.
As a writer, don’t know how much reading you have time to do. But when struggling with death, Larry McMurtry is awesome – not the Western stuff that came later, but his earlier works on Texasville and the whole series he wrote around the character Duane. All of his books have wonderful character development.