I’ll Drive All Night

The camera on my phone doesn’t do justice to this sunset because it is twice as pretty in person as what you see here. Been thinking about all the similarities between home and Texas.

Feels kind of weird to write that because Texas is home, but it is not where I am from or the place that formed me. It is not where the majority of my memories reside but it is the source and repository for some of the very best. Texas will always be where I stepped out of the past, moved into the present and caught glimpses of the future.

We’re back in a transitional phase, or maybe we didn’t really leave it. Back in a bittersweet place because the time has come to make a few more changes, time has come where I have to tweak things again and mix them up.

Bittersweet because of timing and yet I can’t help but smile because of the foundation that was laid here.

There Is A Season

Some might read that and think of my quoting The Byrds and some might hear the voice of Kohellet but who you hear is your choice.

“What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun.”

As for me, well I hear and see many things:

 I am Koheleth; I was king over Israel in Jerusalem. אֲנִי קֹהֶלֶת הָיִיתִי מֶלֶךְ עַל יִשְׂרָאֵל בִּירוּשָׁלָ

There is a much deeper connection tied into that last quote that is not really based for me on religious thought, but something internal. Call it that feeling of wanderlust and the knowledge that I have been on a long journey, rested and am preparing to set sail again.

When I think back to how I had expected to make my home in Jerusalem and how things changed I see a correlation between that moment and this one.

The time of the season has arrived and now I have to prepare myself for the bitter sweet moment I mentioned. It feels a little bit like this to me.

Yeah, there is a little boy who lives inside me, dude still wants to be a superhero. Although given the choice I might pick Wolverine over the others.

The Clock Is Ticking

I can hear the sound of the clock ticking and that is part of what is making me feel wired and unsettled. Too much time to charge my adversaries and too little to just relax.

So I am doing my best to be present in the moment and enjoy them. Doing my best to turn off the noise in my head that tells me to push harder, to somehow stop time by force of will.

Being present makes much more sense and opens me up to the possibilities and opportunities. Being present is what I teach my kids to do so how can I do any less.

But the best part of this feeling is knowing that the transition is hard because so many good things have been a part of this. If it had been bad it would be a much easier change and though easy is “good” I’ll take this side because it means that I have experienced something good, worthwhile and magical.

Night has fallen and there is magic under the moonlight.