Leaving The Hotel California

Less than 24 hours from now I’ll leave Hotel California and be on my way back to Texas.

It has been a pretty damn good trip, but I am starting to crawl out of my skin with anticipation and thoughts about what needs to be done to secure the future I am working on for the family.

Can’t do the work here in California, has to be done in Texas and though I know I should just relax and enjoy the moments here it is hard.

I am not a fan of long goodbyes.

I do better when I just go.

Pull the bandage off in one giant swoop and not in parts and pieces.

 

Blinded By…

There is not as much support for my having taken this challenge on as I would like and more than a few people have questioned me.

I suspect we silently look at the other as being blinded by ignorance/passion or whatever other descriptive words you wish to use.

It frustrates and angers me to get the sort of push back I have gotten and I wonder if they have any idea what their behavior sets off inside my head.

I wonder if they understand that attacking me only makes me more determined to prove them wrong and to do what it takes to move vision to reality.

Part of me takes a deep breath and asks if it is possible they are right and another says “maybe” and reminds me it is impossible to find out without walking through the door.

No risk, no reward.

I tell the kids I understand their concerns and that they have been heard but that doesn’t mean I am going to shift gears.

Can’t stop now, can’t not go the distance and find out for certain if the dream I dreamed is possible.

If I can make this happen the way I think it is going to be good for all of us. Less stress, more opportunity makes me more relaxed and a better father.

So I asked them to trust me when I say I have their best interests in mind and remind myself they can’t be expected to understand or see things the way I do.

Can’t screw an old head on young shoulders.

To the others I say get out of my way or risk an unpleasant encounter because I cannot not do this.

2017- Possibility Meets Opportunity

I suspect people will loosen up as time goes by and I am given more opportunity to show what I am doing and what I have done.

But ultimately things won’t really get easier until they can see firsthand what I am talking about and experience the benefits of the change.

That is a hard road to hoe and doing it the way we have chosen to roll has really made it harder, but I can’t go back in time.

Can’t do it differently, can only go down this road and play out the hand.

So I remind the kids about the importance of maintaining a positive attitude and why I think 2017 will be a year in which possibility turns into opportunity.

Off We Go

Time to go where Fire Meets Water and revisit some moments and memories.

The intersection between their lives turned their worlds upside down and inside out. It forced them to reconsider all they once knew as true and made them question all they thought they were as individuals.

Had they lived during the age of magic they wouldn’t have questioned any of these things. They would have accepted the things their hearts knew as truth even when their heads questioned them.

But they didn’t grow up during the age of magic so they relied upon what they knew to be true…science.

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Those who dare to be more, to have more and to do more have to accept the burden of walking through the fallow fields as well as the green. The only way to get to the other side is to go through.

And once you accept that you survived the moments that you thought would stop you in your tracks and understand how to read the map upon the scars, well then you are on your way, aren’t you.

Happy New Year